Warning: This is a really selfish rant about myself.
If there was one character flaw about myself that I hate to admit, it would be my inability to stay connected to a person, when they are out of sight.
I hate to admit that truth. It is embarrassing to carry that flaw. It is humiliating to repeatedly say sorry to friends I haven't seen in months about how busy I have been to keep in touch. The excuse remains true though - I am busy. I've been busy building my life, striving for my best and relaxing in my own comforts on my free time.
No, that does not make me feel any less about you than the last time I meet you. Those signs of awkwardness that we both get when we first meet after a long time are perfectly normal - we are unsure if the other had changed, either physically or emotionally. At least my character flaw has the ability to remember the last time I felt about you. That is good enough for me.
This is the paragraph that I should blame my upbringing for making me like this - but it wouldn't change my nature, so there's really no point.
So friends, especially those who have been out of my sight or those who will - I am sorry to say that I will have a really complicated time to keep in touch. It is not in my nature to ring up for no reason, and I actually like staying this way. Society has criticized me for this habit of mine, but what doesn't society criticize about?
I know that real friends would accept people's flaws. This is again, embarrassingly, mine.
Have a happy new year all! I am not celebrating with fireworks, but with sparks of hope and ambitions for the betterment of my life.
well from my experience, it's totally OKAY to not stay in touch, especially with high school or primary school friends.
ReplyDeleteOKAY in the sense that even after years of absolutely zero communication, once you guys meet up and chat, chit-chatting feels as if it was just yesterday that you guys parted.
at least, that is my experience.
I have long stopped blaming myself for not putting in enough effort.
More importantly, I have long stop reminding myself to stay in contact with them.
It doesn't really matter, except that you will be overwhelmed by the sudden huge load of news and gossip you will get in 10 minutes haha.